Oldenburg gelding - What to do when it just doesn't fit, torn to keep trying, to find the right way together, to find the right nerve to experience a good togetherness, another year has now passed in the meantime, but it just doesn't fit, I can't force it and he doesn't understand it.... I bought him 3 years ago now, 7 years old, a pedigree like from a picture book, many great dressage horses can be found on the red paper, but it probably didn't help...taken out of dressage with healed tendon damage, a sad horse from which the little girlfriend was taken, he was her heart horse, nevertheless he had to go because he didn't meet the requirements, he didn't last... Now he has been with me in an open stable for 3 years, enjoying his life as a lottery horse, his soul has been able to heal, his tendons have been able to rest, he hasn't been lame for almost 2.5 years, he walks clearly and now he really needs to be ridden regularly.... I timidly went out into the field, always along firm paths, always with my insecurity in my stomach, I don't trust him, although he is hungry for it and with his kind, fine, honest way of handling he courts trust....He is too big for me, 1.73, when I dismount in the field I need a mounting aid and often have to walk a long way to find one....he has fantastic gaits, is a sensitive little horse who wants to rely on his stable person, he needs his person whom he can trust....the little bit of togetherness we have is not enough to get any further.... I want to know that he is in good hands. He spends his time with me, he's bored, stands around in the paddock and would actually like to do something...it's not fair on him. He is really well-behaved, goes his own way in the field, is easy to regulate, has never bucked, is not a walker, a dream in a bay jacket for a safer rider like me. I write a lot here because he is so important to me.